As the year ends I feel a need to tie up loose ends, finalize projects, complete research. Often I have no choice. I have a freelance article due. This year I'm off the hook. But I still feel pressure.
After a while, meeting deadlines becomes a habit and the urge to complete tasks is there whether the tasks are or not. It's part of what makes me get up every morning. It's a switch permanently stuck in the "on" position. I push myself before the holidays because they present a chunk of time during which nothing must be done. It's the open window framing an expansive view — the pause I've been waiting for all year long. I'm not there yet, but I'm getting close.