It has been a while since I had to write a paper. Even though I write all the time and deadlines are my constant companion, there's something about an academic deadline that's different. Is it because a grade rests on the performance? Undoubtedly that has something to do with it.
Most probably, though, it harkens back to some deep primordial fear of failure. The way my stomach would somersault when the teacher (often a nun) began collecting the assignments — and I realized that I Had Left Mine At Home. It was pure terror, to be rehashed in dreams for decades to come.
And then there were those loopy all-nighters of college and late high school, typing (yes, typing — on a typewriter with White Out and correcting strips) the bibliography as the sun rose. Those nights had a rhythm and a pattern all their own: the despair of 2 a.m., the rejuvenation at 3, the near crash at 4 and the triumphant completion at 7:30, just in time for an 8 a.m. class.
I've learned to pace myself a bit since then. I'm mailing my paper today (fingers crossed) and it isn't even due till tomorrow.
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