Missing Words

Half an hour into Wednesday's eight-hour drive I realized that I had left my journal behind.  It wasn't the sort of item one turns around for, this notebook of half-baked ideas, first lines of poems, morning thoughts. But for the last two days I've felt its absence.

What I've missed is not just the potential, the blank pages waiting. I pressed my calendar into service on that errand right away, and now the odd week or two when I had no appointments, nothing in particular to remember, are covered with scrawl.

No, what I miss is the weight I carry with me, the journal as repository. It's as if without the words I've written I'm not exactly me.