Me Time

People always want "me time," said the calm voice emanating from the screen, but we actually have a lot more of it than we might think. The way to retrieve it, he said, is to live mindfully, to stop thinking two steps ahead of ourselves to what we will do after the thing we're doing now. 

When I heard this during my guided meditation session today, little fireworks went off in my mind. Not because I'm always clamoring for "me time," a phrase that frankly makes me cringe. But because I know, in my heart of hearts, how much time I spend spinning wheels and riling myself up over nothing. 

It's largely to still those wheels and quiet that worried, one-step-ahead-of-myself feeling that I've sought the solace of sitting still and focusing on my breath. I am still so poor at it, though; I can barely make it 10 puny minutes before giving in to rumination. 

But the sudden awareness that freeing thought is also freeing time — understanding the power of that equation — well, that will make me try harder from now on.