New Trail in Town

My walking discoveries continue. Late last week I took off again through the nature center, its trails soft with beaten dirt and crushed leaves. I was looking for another way to reach the bridge I hadn't known was there ... and found it!

But instead of turning right again I turned left, and found myself once again on a path I'd never trod. This is a trail I've walked past hundreds of times but somehow never taken. 

I marveled at the tall trees, at the winsome gait of the baseball-capped woman I saw along the way, at the family of five who passed me going the other direction. The tallest of the three children had just found a huge stick, more like a small tree trunk, and he seemed determined to bash everything in sight with it. 

When I had walked a while along this new route, I began to understand where I was, knew I could take a tunnel passage underneath the road. It's amazing what you can see when you take the "new" trail in town.

Raft of Hope

When I wrote yesterday's post I hadn't yet realized that I'd missed the biggest Oscar news to happen in years. Bigger than when Moonlight's Best Picture award was momentarily and mistakenly given to LaLa Land in 2017. 

When Will Smith slapped Chris Rock to defend his wife against one of Rock's jokes, he ignited a storm of controversy that hasn't let up yet.

What I thought not just after watching clips of that episode but often throughout the three-and-a-half-hour show is how the Oscars —and the world, too — have changed in the last couple of decades, how things have grown darker, starker and meaner. 

At times like these I remind myself of what art can do when it's at its best: how it salves wounds, promotes understanding, draws us together.  What Ralph Ellison wrote of the novel can sometimes be applied to other arts: "[It] could be fashioned as a raft of hope, perception and entertainment that might help keep us afloat as we tried to negotiate the snags and whirlpools that mark our nation's vacillating course toward and away from the democratic idea."

A raft of hope! ... I'll cling to that. 

CODA

Before last week the word coda primarily had a musical meaning for me. It was the part of a piece I looked forward to most: the ending. And not just because I might want a piece of music to end—perish the thought!—but because I enjoy the big bombastic finish. 

But last Wednesday, I looked up the Oscar Best Picture nominees to see which ones I'd missed that I might still be able to see ... and there was CODA. I read a review. I watched the trailer. I was hooked. I even signed up for Apple TV in order to watch it (and I have notes to myself all over the place reminding me to cancel Apple TV before my trial period runs out). 

It was worth the effort: I finally had a pony in this race. I was pulling for CODA to win last night, enough that I crept downstairs and turned the TV back on not once, not twice but three times after trying in vain to fall asleep before the winner was announced. 

There will be talk this morning about how this was Apple TV's movie, how Apple beat Netflix to become the first streaming service to boast an Oscar Best Picture. There will be analyses of how business models are changing. All of this is worth talking about. But in the end, it's all about the story, whether we're listening to it around an ancient campfire, watching it in a modern multiplex or streaming it alone on our home computer. CODA has a story that lifts us up — and that's what we need most right now. 

Stealth Gratitude

I've known people who keep a gratitude journal, and I admire them for it. Appreciating what we have is an art improved by practice, and noting the specifics for which we feel thankful — not the generalities but each particular stroke of good fortune — is one way to do it.

But I enjoy being ambushed by gratitude: opening the shutters on a cold spring morning and being shocked by the light that pours inside. Running an errand and being enraptured by a sunset that sets the sky on fire. Eating warmed-up baked ziti and marveling at how good it still tastes.

Gratitude can be coaxed and analyzed and marshaled like a foot soldier. But I prefer the stealth variety, the kind that surprises me with joy. 

Annunciation

In class this week, the professor said a scene from the novel we're reading was an annunciation. I pictured a medieval painting, the rich oil pigments darkened from the smoke of candles burning. I pictured the painting hanging on the wall of a great cathedral,  cold stone and buttresses, echoes of chant and plainsong.

Today is the feast of the annunciation, the day when the Virgin Mary learned she was bearing the son of God via a message from the angel Gabriel. 

I see a painting again, Gabriel in rich reds, his white wings shining. I see Mary's head inclined toward the light, gold halo above her head. 

Annunciation: an announcement, a message, a few words that can change your life. 

(The Annunciation depicted in a 15th century tapestry. Photo courtesy the Art Institute of Chicago.)

A Diller, A Dollar

When my children were young, I used to read them this Mother Goose rhyme:

 "A diller, a dollar, a 10 o'clock scholar. What makes you come so soon? You used to come at 10 o'clock, and now you come at noon."

I feel like this blog is becoming the 10 o'clock scholar — if I hurry, that is. If I don't, it will be the 11 o'clock scholar. 

The non 9-to-5 world, of which I have recently become a member, is good for leisurely mornings. Which is not to say I don't have plenty of to-dos. It's just that they can less hurriedly be to-done.

(These ducks don't seem to be in much of a hurry either.)

The Place To Be

I've visited Washington, D.C.'s cherry blossoms a couple dozen times through the years, but this is the first time I've seen them through the lens of a good camera.

Though I am a novice photographer, I'm an expert blossom-navigator. I can slip through crowds, skip over puddles and keep moving through the inevitable hordes of tourists.

Yesterday the Tidal Basin gave back with picture-perfect weather, peak-bloom blossoms, and the picnickers, strollers and flower-lovers that made this the place to be in the DMV.

They're Calling

The cherry trees are calling ... and I'd like to answer them in person. It's been three years since they were open for business — a funny way to describe them but true since the trees that encircle the Tidal Basin can be (and were) cordoned off.

It's different when you have a perishable to-do in mind, something that won't stay put if you wait too long. The cherry trees are a perfect example. They're in peak bloom now, but all it will take is a hard rain or a brisk breeze and they will be but a shadow of their current selves. And even without those, there's only so long they will last.

Unlike other things I mean to do then, visiting the cherry blossoms has an all-too-real expiration date. 

So I'm looking at my schedule and hurrying up my homework ... and with any luck I'll visit soon.

Connections

In my continuing quest to  explore the untrod paths of my immediate environs I found myself  the other day not exactly lost "in a dark wood," but flummoxed on a bright, leafless hillside. 

In short, I was stymied by a creek that seemed much deeper and fast-flowing than I remembered it being the last time I was there. Since the last time I was there was several years ago, this was understandable. But it didn't help me across. 

For that I had to circle back to the shoulder-less two-lane road I'd crossed to get there. I trotted quickly along the side of the road facing the traffic, stepped over the guard rail, and made it to the other side of the creek before the next car sped by. 

I enjoyed the rest of the stroll alongside the creek, sauntering, thinking, except, I'll admit, for a vague unease about getting back. I needn't have bothered because I discovered on the way home a more direct passage to the trail by staying in my neighborhood's common land until it reaches the stream valley park. There was even a little homemade bridge to guide me. 

I'm not sure, but I think there's a lesson in here somewhere ... 

Russian Rhumba

We lost Dad eight years ago today. He was spared the pandemic, the University of Kentucky's Thursday night loss to the St. Peter Peacocks in the first round of NCAA basketball, and now, the worst street fighting in Europe since World War II. 

I wondered this morning, what he would say about Ukraine? I imagine he would think we should be doing more, but he would also recognize the difficulty and delicacy of the U.S. position.

I do know he would be retelling one of his favorite WWII stories, about the time he visited Mirgorod as part of the shuttle bombing missions known as Operation Frantic. 

Dad was in the second of those runs, which departed England on June 21, 1944, part of a task force that included 114 B-17 bombers and 70 P-51 fighters, which Dad (and many others) called "little friends." I probably owe my existence to these little friends since their addition to the war halted the unsustainable losses of the heavy bombers and their crews. 

Dad's plane, part of the 95th Bomb Group, landed in Mirgorod, which, as Dad later wrote in an article he called "Russian Rhumba" published in a bomb group newsletter, proved to be a good decision. The 43 B-17s that landed in Poltava were destroyed in an overnight raid by the Luftwaffe, and, says Dad, "it didn't take a Ph.D. in foreign affairs from Harvard to see the outrageous deception of our Russian allies." 

Dad ended up flying deeper into the Ukrainian section of the Soviet Union, landing in what was then known as Kharkov and spending a few days with Russian soldiers. One of them "wanted to exchange firearms with me," Dad wrote. "I was wearing a G.I. 45 and he was wearing a Russian issue. Needless to say, I had to say nyet to that proposal."

Reading this story, so full of "Dad'isms" that make me smile and cry at the same time, is a good thing to do today, when our hearts reach out to the descendants of those people my father met so many years ago.

Northwest Passage

I hadn't intended it, but on Wednesday I nearly walked around Lake Audubon. I'd started with nothing more than a different route: down Glade to the nature center, along paths untrodden for years. But that road led to a paved path, then a waterside trail, then a bridge I hadn't known was there.

When I found a street again, I was past the high school, on my way around the lake.  This was significant, my version of the northwest passage. I could now (sort of) circumnavigate the lake where last summer I felt briefly lost. 

Further proof that my ambles have purpose if not destinations, and further proof, also, that my home is Reston. But more on that later. 

To Be in Ireland

On this day of gray skies and soft rain, it's not hard to see the green fields of Ireland, the shaggy cliffs, the ever-present sea, the darling lambs. 

It's not hard to imagine climbing the hill to St. Benan's church on the isle of Inishmore, a place so silent and still, so holy, that even the most committed skeptic could not fail to be moved by it. 

It's not hard to wish I was in Ireland again, knowing that St. Patrick's Day is probably the day you should least want to be in Ireland ... but wanting to be there just the same. 

A Cry in the Night

I was awakened at 4 by the barking of a fox. This is not a rare occurrence. What made it memorable was how close the fox seemed to be. Right beneath the bedroom window from the sound of it. 

For years after we moved here I thought this sound was the screech of an owl or some kind of wounded animal, so distressed did it seem. It troubled my sleep, made nightmares of my dreams. The night itself seemed to be speaking, issuing a warning, sounding an alarm.

I know now that this howl is the bark of a fox, going about its foxy business, further proof of the wild kingdom that flourishes just outside these four walls. 

I no longer fear this sound, even if it wakes me up.  I just read for a while to settle my jangled nerves, taking comfort in the fact that we share this place with the animals who were here before us.

Leaving Normal Behind

Trading this...

For many of us, today marks two years since we left normal life behind.  March 15th was a Sunday in 2020, and the Monday that followed was a workday unlike any other I'd experienced. 

I was at home — and so was everyone else, of course. It seemed then like a snowstorm without the snow, a temporary break from routine. 

Little did we know how the virus would upend our lives,  how it would take the weak and terrify the strong, how it would deepen the political divide and turn our downtowns into ghost towns. 

But all that and more was in store for us on that March Monday, two years and a lifetime ago.

... for this.

The Lexingtonians

Yesterday's memorial service paid tribute to a husband, son, brother, uncle, cousin and friend. But most of all, it paid tribute to an artist.

My cousin Pat was a painter, musician and filmmaker. He was, as many recalled, a man who created the life he wanted to live ... and managed to live it in the town where he was born.

I think many of us in the audience thought about our own lives, weighed them against his, measured the tradeoffs, the staying put versus the leaving.  

My cousin Brian, Pat's brother, summed it up best when he spoke: "Today I'm not just proud to be a brother, I'm proud to be a Lexingtonian."

And though the family members in attendance now reside in Brussels, Paris, California, New York, Michigan, Virginia, Ohio,  Maryland and D.C.,  yesterday we were all Lexingtonians. 

Winter Again

From shorts to shudders: that's what the weather has given us in the last 24 hours. Yesterday, Lexingtonians were bopping around in t-shirts and cut-offs. Today they're donning parkas and gloves.

For many people in the middle to eastern half of the country, Standard Time is going out with a bang — wind chills in the teens and (at least in Lexington) five or so inches of snow on the ground.

It's a good day to stay inside and visit with family, which is what I'm doing. 

The sun is bright and there's a warmup in the forecast but, at least for now, it's winter again.

(You'd have to look hard to see crocuses blooming today.)

Back in the Bluegrass

By Winchester the land has changed, has taken on the open feel of the Bluegrass. It's close in Mount Sterling, but not quite there. 

So I felt myself exhale a little when we got to that point on our drive yesterday, savoring that feeling of home.

It's a feeling I've been enjoying all day. 

Spring Break

The very idea of it seems far-fetched. It is too early for spring, too early for a break. But break time is is, at least for the student part of my life. 

There was no class Tuesday evening, though I prepared for it anyway since my break, which starts today, will get me home just in time for Tuesday class next week. 

Because as it turns out, I am taking a "spring break," though one I wish I wasn't. I'm heading out today to Kentucky for my cousin's memorial service: a talented man gone far too soon. 

The trip will have its share of sadness, then, but also its share of joy, visiting with family I don't often see. A break in many senses of that word: a road trip, a respite, a departure from the ordinary. 

Walking and Belonging

In his book The Walker: On Finding and Losing Yourself in the Modern City, Matthew Beaumont describes walking as s socially and psychologically meaningful activity.  Authors make cities seem new and strange when they wander through them on foot. And they have their characters do the same.

So just as Charles Dickens ambled along the lanes of Victorian London, so too do some of his characters, including Mr. Humphreys of The Old Curiosity Shop.  Apparently, Dickens walked for the same reason many of us do: to calm himself down, to ease tensions. 

Beaumont examines city walking in the work of Edward Bellamy (Looking Backward), H.G. Wells (The Invisible Man) and others, illuminating both the texts and the walking in the process.

 I take issues with one of Beaumont's major points, though, which is to see walking as a symbol and a symptom of not belonging: the solitary nighttime stroller at odds with the world he lives in (and it often is a "he" since women's nocturnal walking opportunities are more limited than men's). 

From my suburban vantage point, walking is an activity that encourages belonging because it engenders understanding. How can we care about a place that we do not know, and how can we know a place that we never see ... except as it streams by outside our car windows?

Untidy Course

A few days of unseasonably warm weather meant I slept last night with open windows and the early spring air flowing through the room. It reminded me of warm days to come and the freedom of being at one with the outdoors.

It's another story this morning. Colder and more seasonable air has moved in and the newly popped daffodil blossoms are shivering on their stems.

A good reminder of the halting, sidewise, untidy course of progress.

(Snowdrops along Reston trail.) 

Over Easy

Too often I'm distracted. I wait too long to flip them over. But this morning the timing was right and the eggs were perfect: just runny enough to coat the whites.

Over easy has a nice, free-and-easy sound. It says flapjacks in the morning, a pot of tea brewing, the whole day ahead. 

Never mind that most mornings aren't like that. So the words promise—but only occasionally do they deliver. 

Solidarity

Who would not be moved by the photos coming from Ukraine, by the snow falling on families as they leave the homes and country they love, by the scenes of children too sick to travel, hiding in basements while parents hold their IV bags?

Who would not shake their fist at a world where raw aggression cannot be stopped because to do so would create a nuclear war out of what is still a "regional conflict"?

The images are haunting: burnt husks of buildings, unexploded shells in playgrounds, lines of weary citizens carrying bags and babies to what they hope is a new, safe place.

Who cannot look at these images and think, how long and difficult it can be to build things up ... but how terribly quickly they can be destroyed. 

Whimsical Walk

The suburb of Reston, Virginia, is made for walking. Trails wind from neighborhood to neighborhood. Founder Robert E. Simon (the "RES" in Reston) designed the suburb for living and working. The trails connect the two.

Yesterday I strolled from Reston's earliest "downtown," Lake Anne, to its newest, Reston Town Center.  I'd never taken this path before, though I'd skirted quite close to it through the years. 

Along the way, I passed Hickory Cluster, a midcentury modern townhome development with big windows and geometric lines created in the 1960s by architect Charles Goodman. There were impromptu conversations in the community forest, one woman with a pair of corgis, another with a fluffy golden retriever. 

I passed a small giveaway library and the charming little scene above. The whimsy suited the place, looked perfectly at home among the woodland paths and the open common. I slowed my pace because I didn't want this walk to end.

Lenten Rose

A walk through Georgetown before class last evening renewed my hankering for Lenten roses. What creamy beauties they are, how full-bodied compared with their early spring cousins the snowdrop and winter aconite. I've wanted to plant Lenten roses (also known as hellebores) for years, but now I'm on a mission. 

Of course, last night I was being swayed by the excellent company the plants were keeping, by the environment in which I spotted them. A late winter afternoon, sun slanting low over cobblestones, grand houses standing guard over a neighborhood I could walk through for hours and never tire of.

Even a dandelion would look good in that setting. 

Gallimaufry

I picked up the book because I know the author and enjoy reading his work.  The title bewildered me until I looked inside and saw this definition: "Gallimaufry: a confused jumble or medley of things." 

Joseph Epstein's latest collection is all of that. There are essays on baseball ("Diamonds are Forever"), Julius Caesar ("Big Julie") and the author's defense of the Comic Sans font. Reading this plump and happy book is like devouring a hot fudge sundae smothered with whipped cream. It's fun and filling and a bit of a guilty pleasure (the latter because Epstein recently angered the PC police).

I read Epstein because he's brilliant; because he's a dinosaur, an essayist in the model of Orwell, Hazlitt or Montaigne; and also because he was my teacher long ago. Our first assignment was to come up with our favorite word. Mine was "rhapsody," which captured a moment in my youth when I was young and romantic and could still play the Brahms pieces known by that name. His was "deliquesce," which means to melt away but which he admired, he said, because it contained the word "deli."

Which brings me to the humor and low-key erudition in his work. Epstein, for all his knowledge, does not flaunt it. He's clear,  cogent and refreshingly honest. He makes me remember what it was like to read and write before the age of Great Divisions. 

All of which is to say I'm enjoying Gallimaufry immensely. Maybe by the time I've finished reading it I will have learned how to spell it.